I have a mental problem. I am a psycho. I was a psycho since I was young. When I was in early 20s, I played with some hot chicks in the club. Not only playing with women, but also I loved drinking alcohols and drugs. And, I often had a night with random ladies as well. It was my routine. This was my life. But now, I changed into a total different person. I am not like the guy who I used to be. I now have a high status job with two children and my amorous wife, Juliana. This one incident had changed my life entirely. Without this incident, I wouldn’t have changed at all.
7 years ago…
“Breaking news”
“Good morning, this is ABS news. We have this grotesque story to share with you this morning. Yesterday at 8pm, there was a drunken man lying down on the Harlem street, beside the garbage bags. Luckily, the police found him out quickly, so he survived. But, as we examined him for an hour in the prosecutor’s office, he turned out to be a severe alcoholic and a drug addict. So, the New York psychology department and mental hospital staffs decided to take care of this guy about a year to rehabilitate his alcohol problems.”
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Shamefully, I was counted as one of the heavy drinker among my friends. I started to drink alcohols when I was in freshman year of high school. My friend and I used to hide some drinks and cigarette inside my house storage room, where my parents won’t ever notice. So, whenever afterschool, my friends used to come over to my house and threw a party in our backyard. We played wild. And, that enjoyment was one of my pleasures in life. To flashback my memories from the past, I was such a delinquent in 1990s. Though I regret that pitiful life, encountering some alcohols and drugs in the early age eventually made me to progress myself in the future. However, my depraved teenage life story starts from now on.
Ok, so previously, I’ve mentioned about how much I was in love with alcohols and drugs from an early age, right? But that’s just like a minor thing compare to what I’m going to say right now. To be honest, as much as how I loved alcohols, I used to get obsessed with beautiful women as well. Like, if there is a woman with charming appearance and a hot body shape, then I would just go insane and chase after that lady. So, frankly, I went clubbing every single night to check out some hot babes. Isn’t that just so absurd? Therefore, my parents gave up on me earlier. They didn’t even care about me. Perhaps, I once thought that it might have been my parent’s fault to make my life miserable. Since, I loved women, alcohols, drugs, and clubbing, some of my friends started to avoid me. Well, I guess they didn’t like my changes. So, normally I was alone at school. I spent my high school year alone by myself. But, I didn’t really care whether I was alone or not because, I was used to being alone. At that time, I actually abhorred when somebody tried to be my friend and pretends to be my one and only friend. I think I didn’t truly believe in them because of their attitudes and hypocritical words. Thus, I decided to be myself and enjoy my life without any interruptions from others.
Then, as I get old, I firmly believed that years will bring wisdom. Ironically, it didn’t. Everything was exactly the same, except for my wrinkly face. And, due to my alcohol problems, I got diagnosed with liver cancer. After recognizing my lifespan, I literally fainted. So, I regretted all of my past life and my fast life. Regrets that came too late didn’t alter my life a bit. It just made me worse. Since I knew that I had no hope in my life, I lived more miserable than the past. I basically tortured my body with full of alcohols and drugs everyday. But one day, I felt that my body couldn’t just function anymore. So to speak, I was drunk as usual on that day. And, I was coming out from this random club in Harlem street. I just couldn’t control myself. My steps were tottering and my body was just in a total disaster. Then, I have no idea what happened after I collapsed. As soon as I woke up, I was in the room with pure white colored wallpapers. I had no clue what was going on. Few minutes later, a weird looking woman came into my room. And, she started to check on my fever and my condition.
“Are you feeling better now? Did you sleep well?”
Her name was Juliana. And, she was a doctor. She told me that I was carried to the hospital by ambulance. I checked around the room and then, I looked at Juliana. She had this scar of a burn on her neck. She had really repulsive appearance. But for some reason, she looked really generous and beautiful through my sight. She was a stunning beauty. Normally, I would freak out by looking at ugly women. However, this time, it was different. I had weird feelings toward her. Whenever I looked at her, my heartbeat started to pound extremely fast. I assured that was my first true love. So, as I got my rehabilitation done with Juliana, I fell in love with her. She had warm hearted personalities. She was the one who actually cares about me. I got really touched by her warm helping hand. So, I decided to ask her out.
“Hey, so how’s your condition? Do you feel better?” Juliana asked.
“I feel much better than before. But, I’ve got one problem.”
“Oh! What is it?” Juliana inquired worriedly.
“I’m not sure whether it is a particular disease or not, but I feel like I’m not the person who I used to be. I mean, everything is so unfamiliar to me. You might not know, but I used to have extremely picky personality. It might sound really awkward, but I used to like only pretty women. I mean, I think I was too foolish. I was like a kid. But, I realized after experiencing you. As soon as I woke up from the anesthetic, the first one to see through my eyes was you. Not my parents, not my friends, it was you. Juliana, throughout past few months, I’ve pondered myself. Since I never had this feeling before, I’m not sure how to ask you out. But I think I’m in love with you. If I leave the hospital, I have this feeling that you will be on my mind for 24/7. And I don’t think I will be able to get better without you.”
“…umm” Juliana hesitated.
“I love you. Will you marry me?”
After my confession toward Juliana, my face turned into a red tomato. Nevertheless, my courage eventually made me to be married with my one and only beautiful fiancé, Juliana. It is no exaggeration to say that she changed my life. Not only, Juliana changed my life, but also my body itself changed it too. Surprisingly, after a year of rehabilitation period, I couldn’t even drink alcohols, nor do drugs. So, whenever I see or smell any alcohols, I would just vomit everything out straightly. Therefore, my wife would always make fun of me and say that I have methyphobia.
“Hey, look who has an alcohol phobia.” Juliana said with teasing voice.
“haha, it’s better than me being a drunkard and make your life difficult.”
“True that! I love you honey” Juliana said to me with caring tone.
Seriously, without Juliana, my life would be still miserable. Even though, my past was unbelievably horrible, she was the only woman who understood my past and comforted me. Through Juliana, I’ve realized that judging a person by an appearance is the most misleading behavior that one could make. Juliana is like an inextricable woman who made me to experience the true love. Moreover, she was the one who can cure my phobias. Due to the long rehabilitation period, it gave me some incurable phobias, like, fear of being alone-autophobia and fear of beautiful women-Caligynephobia. I’m not sure why I got these incurable diseases that once I used to enjoy. But, after meeting Juliana, I was able to go through these phobias together. Thus, I am so blessed to have this amazing woman right by my side.
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“Daddy, can you help me do my hair?” said the oldest daughter.
“Honey, would you please take care of Lindsey? I’m too busy here dressing up!” Juliana yelled.
“Daddy…Lindsey took my toy!” said the youngest son with tearful voice.
Even though, I live frenetic life with my kids, I am so happy to be with my family and my wife. One thing that I assure is that I won’t be able to live without my love, Juliana. (1513)